Its an UGH kind of day!

Well this heat has finally gotten the best of me! Started last night with stumbling for words and moving very slow. Its really weird, even though it has been happening for years, that I know in my head how to say things and think it just fine; but when it comes out my mouth, it is totally different and messed up. I sound like a 2 or 3 year old trying to talk. That is the perils of Multiple Sclerosis. This signals in my brain lose it some where along the way.

With that being said, Im just gonna write my blog and play games on the computer to work my brain.

I promised I would introduce myself more. As you probably know already, my name is Jen. I am a 44 year old, married mom of three young adults and 2 fur babies. As a whole, most people think that people are so different but, I think that we are more alike than we realize. I just want to be happy, my hubby and kids to be happy and to live a full life.

Crocheting is helping me with these. Some days I feel like I could just crawl in a hole and die. Who would miss me? Multiple Sclerosis has changed my world and mind so much. Crocheting has helped me find some piece and given me something to do. Making people happy with my crochet has truly been a blessing. I may not pray as much as I should. God knows my intentions and I believe in him wholeheartedly.

Im sorry if this post is all over the place, that too is because of the MS. My train of thought wanders so much I can't always think straight.

Back to introducing myself and my family. I have been married to a wonderful man for over 25 years.  I don't always appreciate him but I do always love him. He, like everyone else, has his faults. There are a few things I don't like but thats what makes him unique. All his selfish, mean, nice, loving ways are what makes him who he is. We were married in January of 1989. I was only 18 years old, so I have been with him for way more than half my life. People tell me I am way too nice and let people walk all over me. Hate to say it, but they are right. I am easily manipulated and give in way too easily. I work on changing this each and everyday. Sometimes I wonder if the old saying, "you can't teach an old dog new tricks", is true.

All in all, we have a good marriage. He has stood by me through so much. MS has changed his life and my family's life just as much as mine. He has seen me at my worst and my best. I often blame myself for putting him through so much.

I don't think I will be crocheting today as my mind is not moving fast enough. It has taken me like an hour just to write this. Nap, Nap and more naps are in my future.
Thanks for listening to my ramblings! I will leave you with two pictures today. My sweet fur baby, Ollie, who is a year old today and an item I have crocheted. If you like what you see, please visit www.etsy.com/shop/debutantdesigns or www.facebook.com/debutantdesignstoo

Hugs & Best Stitches
Jen